Failed

Whirlpool of thoughts
Myriads of memories
Unplugged from the world
Heard the devil playing its tunes
Everything fell silent for a minute,
my demons woke up, they are awake,
Shhh, shhh, let them go back to sleep.

No, not this time.
It is time I picked a fight,
against the demon of self loath,
against the asura of anxiety,
against the raging rakshasa

Why? Are you sure?
You want more tears?
and what about more sleepless nights?

I can't feed them
with my happiness anymore

I can't let them rest
on my fears anymore

I can't, I can't, I can't

The asura of anxiety smirked.

Stop it, stop it. No, not again.

Breathe, breathe. It's okay.
Inhale, exhale.

Let's do it again.

Out, out of my house.

These walls are mine,
made with love
You can't stain them with your
hatred.

Is it? Booom, memories played on repeat.

Tears trickled down the pale cheek.
I wish I had him, here beside me.
I hate the fact that he left.
I hate the fact that I let him destroy me.

The demon of self loath watched her fall.

It's happening again.

I can't, I can't, I can't

Stop it, stop it.

Let's do it again.

Wiped my tears,
picked myself,
Started all over again.

I know what I am worth for,
You can't define me,
you can't judge me,
you can't take over me.
Go away, right now.

Ha ha ha

Think.
Why wouldn't anyone be with you?
You have no friends.
You have no life.
You study all the time.
You can't even crack a joke.
I am not judging you,
look at your friends judge you.
See why they don't talk to you anymore?
Because you have gone mad,
nobody likes mentally affected people.
You are a psycho

Wait? what?
I am psycho?
No, I am fine. I am not mentally retarded.

Yes you are.
You have nobody,
You sit alone, always.
You can't make conversations on the dining table.
You are not wanted.

This can't be true.
I have friends, they check on me

Yeah, like once in 2 months.
Sure

And at this point, she knew she lost it to depression.